Here.. Since my secondary school life, I saw lots of people around me have friends that are very close to each other. Sharing their laughters together, sharing their things together, going everywhere together and so on. Stick together non-stop for everyday, every time and everywhere.
I've seen few pairs of best friends around me. One of the pairs which is in my 2009 5A class always hang around together. Going out together almost every time, talk together everyday, always stay at each other's house, laugh together in sudden by their own and no one even know what are they laughing about. Joking and disturbing each other but they will never angry. They even can talk secrets with each other.
Another pair doesn't really go out together that much, but their relationship between each other are very close than any other people. It's like they have a barrel to block other people from interfering them. Unless those who also very close with them. I'm quite envy on these close friends.
Close friends will not hide secrets from each other. Close friends will always remember another one of them. Close friends will always hang around with each other. Close friends will always have them same taste and point of view. Talk, play and joke to each other with craziness and will have never ending topics. Laughters would never end. They will straightforward point out each other's wrong and will not angry. Even is angry, one of them will apologies first. They won't even get bored of seeing each other and even understand with each other's feelings too.
Well, why do I start about this post? Actually I've hurt someone on last Saturday. Cause of my 'big mouth' , I said wrong things and made her feel very sad & I don't even know. Her close friend or I should say is her godson knew that I say wrong things, he immediately online the game that he felt bored of it to find her and see how is she. Then I was being lectured by him. I never rebel back or fight back since it's my fault. But he said 1 thing that really hurt me deeply. He said, "You should get a very close friend so you would able to understand how we feel now." Well yeah, you're right.. I don't have any other close friends only you and 'her'..
About her.. We do always chat on phone last time when she was still in Sg Long. She moved to Malacca when she was 14. Her house shift were due to her dad going to Malacca to work. Yeah, so she was being forced to leave here. We now only manage to meet few times in a year. She's kinda busy with her studies now. I hardly about to contact with her cause of she's really very busy. I remember whatever she told me, I kept whatever she gave me. I really love her.. How I wish I would able to see her now in this minute and this second.
So now, I bet now you know why I don't understand about it. I often being left out being invited to parties and outings. I quite always alone in my seat in school as in the guy beside me always run to other people there [shouldn't agree on sit with him at first, it's like sitting alone with myself ]-.-.. I always do my things alone except for group works. I mostly is standalone. Why?
Time flies back..
I remember when I was still primary school, I always being bullied by my classmates. Some guys bullied me and some of the girls hate me cause I'm close with most of the guys. Then started that time I won't get close too much and keep my distance with guys, for girls beside from that they also said that I'm fat and not pretty that's why they don't want me to join them..
One of them even satirize me infront of classmates said that I have a few spare tyres.. =.=.. Lame right? Lols.. But I use to it already..
That time I really had a hard time to find friends to accompany me.. So I mostly do my things alone hardly rely on other friends cause I don't want being say by others.
[p/s: I know this is my excuse.. But please let me use this as my excuse.. ]
At last, I felt very sorry about her cause of my 'mis-chat' made her really down.. Feel sorry to him cause I made him so bad mood and upset on me. I almost break their good relationships cause of my words.. Although now she feel better but I still don't feel that good too..
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