how?

How to tell you how I feel ? It's hard for me cause I know most of the answers =/

Do you trust me actually?

02/06/2011

A small question that he asked me,

A small thing that he kept on repeating,

Made me feel like he doesn't trust me that much.

I know that I'm just over sensitive on this,

I know that he's just disturbing / joking with me.

But he questioned and keep repeating it too much,

Made me feel kinda down.

His questions actually I don't really mind at all.

Why am I so mad?

What do I mind?

What I mind was he said this :-

"Don't give other people my id and password ah"

Do I looks like a person that will give out people's things without their permission?

Said once never mind, but twice ._.

I really straight mood become very down in sudden.

Oh well, he at the end also notice that my mood become a bit sienz d.

I bet he know my mood was kinda down?

At last, I just wanna ask :-

Do you actually trust me ?

Get well soon...♥

Hmmm he has been sick for almost 1 month, keep on cough non stop..

This stubborn kia always never go visit doctor...

Till it's getting worse so I forced him to see doctor again.

He kept on telling me that he's suffer inside the camp.

Whenever the night reached, his cough always become serious.

Whenever I heard his cough, I felt so sad.

I can't do anything for him.

I'm not in Singapore to accompany and take care of him now.
I hope he'll take care of his own health till the day I can take care of him anytime.

Of course is automatically instead of I go force him @@

What can I do now is only listen and support his sickness will get well soon...

Today 28/5/2011 he went see doctor, doctor gave him a lot medicines.

I wonder what medicine are those for...

I Love You Dar ♥♥♥

Sigh =/

Today I feel dam bad for someone =(

I wonder why I asked something without thinking too much.

Sometimes think too much isn't good, but in other way is good..

Perhaps I shouldn't question too much about people's relationship unless the person tell me by his/her own...

Why I never think of it?

Now problem occurs and I feel dam guilty..

What can I do now?

Seriously I feel really bad right now...

I'm sorry... really sorry... I will learn to talk before think...

Past Few Months

Hmmm.. These few months I've been doing on ISO 9001 : 2008 in my dad's company - Alpha Hope Sdn. Bhd. instead of studying first. From what I've learnt ISO is International Organization of Standardization. Instead of using 'IOS' as short form, they decided to use 'ISO' as short form which is mean 'cooperation' in Greek language. The definition of 'ISO' is to make sure a company is doing well on their product with systematic way & proven in documentation. Mr. Alvin the consultant from Global Standard told us : "Do as what we wrote, write what we did. ". Well, at the end of September, Ms Tang from BM Trada has came to my dad's company to have some audit. Well, at the end not bad lah. She gave us a draft certificate and said we have to complete 3 NCR [ non-confirming report] then we can get a real certificate for ISO. hmmm, we had done and submitted. We'll get the certificate from UK within few months~

Few days ago, Mr. Fukuyama & Mrs. Fukuyama from PLATZ has came to my dad's company. We'll, they are happy for our achievement. but they didnt give us any good orders for next year till we get JIS from Japan. We have to achieve it around July 2011. keke~ I'm happy also cause Mrs. Fukuyama said that I'm kawaii hahahahas!! I'm like proud sia =X i must put more afford to diet le LOL

Well another thing is past few months i patched back with Chian Wen already. but unfortunately i broke up around 3 months ago again~ hmmm, how to say. i don't feel too depress this time, maybe my tears dried up during that few months. almost every night i cried cause of loneliness without him. i know he's very good to me yet i decided to let him go.

I wanna say to you:

Chian Wen, sorry and thanks for everything you gave me. Flash back, we do really broke up and patch back for N times. Not cause of quarrel, but mostly is cause of some reason. Then we patched back cause of we can't let go each other. We never ever quarrel. Seriously, I'm very very very insecure and lonely without you for many many months, since the time you can't accompany me much. Perhaps I get used to everyday every night have your sms and phone chats, so I cant get used to 1 month messaged not over 10 sms, on phone chat around 1 or 2 months once, aren't enough for me. Not only aren't enough, it's cause of I heard from what you told me when you're emo. I remember whatever you'd told me, whenever you are emo or not emo, I do remember all. Got once you kept on saying that i never change for you [you scolded me cause I dont know how to sing mandarin songs], i never do anything for you and many complains about me to me. I knew it's your voice within your heart. Then I started to notice that our relationship is started to fragile. I wondered, will this relationship be last long?

After that, you did apologies to me on what you said during emo and still asked me no need to do anything for our relationship. I felt I'm dam useless during this time. At least, you worked and studied hard cause of for me. What did i do? Play, sleep, eat, rest, what else? Then we left each other like this cause of my short patience. Half years+ only, I never know I will give up so easy.. you asked me to leave you and find a better bf than you. but so far, i still not really can let you go.

I decided try to put a full stop in the love story between us.. I'd gave you 3 months time & to see will you want me back. But, you never. I felt pain when the start of November reached. So i decided to bury the feelings toward you deep in my heart.. till one day.. it maybe will being enlighten us to another love story? Well, no matter how.. I hope you know.. I loved you but it's the end now..

Thats all i guess.. hmm.. I will update more about these few months soon~

Keke~ hahahas.. time to put a full stop with my relationship.. I wonder will I have a new one.. hahahahas. aren't possible till i let go i guess xD

Best Rgrds,

Sue Anne

Lies?

Lolx, these days I realised
Ppl around me always lying n fooling ppl..
Wat for?
Telling d truth will die?
Telling d truth will kill u?
Or u think,
Telling d truth d world will end?

Someone told me and my friends,
-U have to believe me, its real.
-I gt rl gf le, dun love me anymore
-My gf went for competition, wan i forward her msg to u?
-My sister's bf gave her a diamond ring as present and etc

i was LOL? why should i believe u?
As long as u were trying to lie me before?
My probs?
When u betrayed me once,
u wan me to believe u again?
now i'm fully put my trust on u,
u wanna lie me again?

FINE!
I wanna tell u,
Get lost idiot.
Dun ever try to lie me.
Dont be Stupid, i rather u bcome naive.
Want lie ppl? Go other place pls.
Dam u.